And I continue to write the love story..
Monday, June 30, 2008
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ME, NOT AT ALL.
ALL YOU DO IS SCOLD ME, VENT UR ANGER AT ME.
LIKE ALWAYS.
WHY CANT WE TALK NICELY FOR ONCE?!
YOU TREAT ME THE BEST? YEAH. LIKE Y-E-A-H.
EVERYTIME, I GET SCOLDING FROM HER,
& SMACKING EVEN.
ALL BECAUSE, YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD ME.
IM SORRY FOR THE BILL FOR BEING SO HIGH.
LIKE HELLO? IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON USING THE COMP.
OR ANYTHING IN THE HSE LAH.
why am i saying this in my blog?
its because, i dont wanna say it at his FACE.
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ME, NOT AT ALL.
ALL YOU DO IS SCOLD ME, VENT UR ANGER AT ME.
LIKE ALWAYS.
WHY CANT WE TALK NICELY FOR ONCE?!
YOU TREAT ME THE BEST? YEAH. LIKE Y-E-A-H.
EVERYTIME, I GET SCOLDING FROM HER,
& SMACKING EVEN.
ALL BECAUSE, YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD ME.
IM SORRY FOR THE BILL FOR BEING SO HIGH.
LIKE HELLO? IM NOT THE ONLY PERSON USING THE COMP.
OR ANYTHING IN THE HSE LAH.
why am i saying this in my blog?
its because, i dont wanna say it at his FACE.
6:59 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Shutup & leave.
now i know, what a shit ass attitude you have.
fuck off,
but one thing.
i still love you.
as usual, went to CHC for service.
wore like ~!@#$%^&*.
hahaha. thn went tingjun's mother's stall eat?
yeah, then i walked home.
now im here.
i need to get sometime, alone.
& touch up on everything. thats missing.
in my life.
now i know, what a shit ass attitude you have.
fuck off,
but one thing.
i still love you.
as usual, went to CHC for service.
wore like ~!@#$%^&*.
hahaha. thn went tingjun's mother's stall eat?
yeah, then i walked home.
now im here.
i need to get sometime, alone.
& touch up on everything. thats missing.
in my life.
3:49 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Back to updating :D
sorryyyy, cant use comp eh,
& my moniter got STOLEN by my aunty ._.
lappie is spoiled, thanks to me, *laughs*
Im only updating when i have the time.
sorrriessss. D:
but, i'll try my best to reply tags kay [:
so continue tagging narh D:
no tag = dont feel like blogging.
The week of school is saddening,
most of the time im smiling,
but im not really happy. :/
but see he happy, i guess i can cheer up abit already.
haha.
Replies to tags.
Aiyun : yeah.
Jialing : where got! LOL
Mingyi : lazy narh D:
Cindy : thankyou? :D
Guest : which? haha. if the post one, is Endless love, if is the blog song, is First love [:
Yanyi : haha ;D
Jialing : LOL. [: updated.
Sinyi : sweetsweet ♥
aiyun : dont u know i cant?
Jiahui : no problemo :D thats what i can do for my little girl right? ♥
sorryyyy, cant use comp eh,
& my moniter got STOLEN by my aunty ._.
lappie is spoiled, thanks to me, *laughs*
Im only updating when i have the time.
sorrriessss. D:
but, i'll try my best to reply tags kay [:
so continue tagging narh D:
no tag = dont feel like blogging.
The week of school is saddening,
most of the time im smiling,
but im not really happy. :/
but see he happy, i guess i can cheer up abit already.
haha.
Replies to tags.
Aiyun : yeah.
Jialing : where got! LOL
Mingyi : lazy narh D:
Cindy : thankyou? :D
Guest : which? haha. if the post one, is Endless love, if is the blog song, is First love [:
Yanyi : haha ;D
Jialing : LOL. [: updated.
Sinyi : sweetsweet ♥
aiyun : dont u know i cant?
Jiahui : no problemo :D thats what i can do for my little girl right? ♥
5:45 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Jackie Chan (Mandarin): Discover the mystery of my waiting.
Stars’ re falling, wind blows,
Finally, I hold you tight again,
Two hearts beat…
Believe me…believe in my heart that will never change,
Waiting for thousands of years, I keep my promise,
No matter how many cold winters I will suffer,
I love you, and never will I let you go,
Kim (Korean)*:
Hold my hands closing your eyes,
Please recall those days we spent together,
It’s because we love each other too much,
That makes it more painful for us,
Even feel hard to say ‘I love you’
Jackie Chan (Mandarin):
My painful heart stays with me to go through every night,
I miss you, there’s no end,
I accustomed myself to the loneness for such a long time,
And face it with a smile,
You chose to wait, for you trust me,
No matter how much pain I will suffer, I never give up,
Only your kindness and tenderness can save me,
From the endless coldness,
Kim: Repeat *
Together (Mandarin):
Let the love become
The blooming flower in our hearts living forever,
We pass through space and time, never give up fighting for our dream,
(Korean)
It’s because we love each other too much,
That makes it more painful for us,
Even feel hard to say ‘I love you’
Let the love become
The blooming flower in our hearts living forever,
(Korean) Never will us forget our promise,
Only the true love lives with us,
Pass through the boundless space, and endless time,
(Korean) Even feel hard to find a way to say ‘I love you’
Jackie Chan (Mandarin):
Love is the only beautiful myth that will never change in our hearts.
10:24 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
why, must i be sad?
i want to be happy.
like everyone else, i thought, happy go lucky was me.
but i guess, things change.
i cant accept this fact that, till now, i cant forget you.
i CANT.
i dont wan to be miserable.
i dont wan ppl to worry.
but you act as if, nothing had happened.
as if, you've never loved me.
as if, im invisible.
i miss you, like never before
words cant explain how much i love you.
how much i care for you.
where are the people that i need?
So much for the sweet words ,
but i guess, things change, people too. right?
I'll accept this fact, & live on
dont worry, i wont do anything silly.
i guess.
10:27 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Tagged by Sister & cindy
.001. What's the connection between you and the person that last called you?
She calls me sis-in-law. so. what do i call her?
002. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yes, when i find the whole world is irritating.
003. What happened at 10.00am today?
still in Dreamland ah :D
004. When did you last cry?
Ytd evening? :D.
005. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread.
006. What do you want in your life right now?
no idea neh
007. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
i use my umbrella ella ella elllaaaaaa! :D
008. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
my pillowwww
009. What bottom are you wearing now?
pants? why didnt u ask me earlier! i wasnt wearing pants jus now!
010. Whats the nicest text in your inbox?
But honey cannot die before me jiu die le :( { note, not my stead, GAN honey [: }
011. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I dont want to, but i really got it complicated in the end..
012. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope.
013. What was the last movie you caught?
uhh, dont know.
014. What are you proud of?
Nothinggggggggggggggggg [:
015. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
It's private, but its from someone i really love.
016. What was the last song you sang out loud?
I'll remember you
017. Do you have any nicknames?
have ;P
018. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
lol. i gone bnet. From Jason.
019. What time did you go to bed last night?
5am. /:
020. Are you currently happy?
bleah, i dont know {:
021. Who gives you best advice?
um, many ppl.
022. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no -.-
023. Who did you talk on phone last night?
DannyLai? for a few mins only though
024. Is anything bugging you right now?
mmhmm [:
025. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
i laugh at everything -.-
026. Do you wear toe socks?
excuse me , i suspect you're still living in the 70's era.
027. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my beloved dear [:
028. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Uhhuh.
029. What annoys you most in a person?
irritating ppl lahhhhh.
030. Do you have a crush on anyone?
bleah :P
031. Have you ever done cocaine?
huh ._.
032. What is the colour of your room?
blueeeeeeee
033. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Umm, not sure?
034. You believed in the saying "talk in cheap"?
huh.
035. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
im lying on it now.
036. Who was the last person to hug you?
um, dont rmb
037. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
bleah,
038. Do you have a life?
please dont be retarded
039. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
nope
040. What is the reason behind your profile song?
no song.
041. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
someone lor.
042. Last time you smiled?
Just.
043. Have you changed this year?
i think so?
044. What are you listening to right now?
-
045. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
sister [:
046. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
when im seriously tired, i walked with my eyes closed.
047. Is there a quote you live by?
no
048. Do you want someone you can't have?
Yes.
049. Have you ever played an instrument?
Recorder is included right? :X
050. What was the worst idea you've had in weeks?
Worst ah. send that bloody email lor.
051. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
chatting i guess.
052. Are you happy with your love life right now?
NOOOO.
053. What song describe your love life?
I'll remember you.
054. Does the person know that you like him/her?
He has probably forgotten me by now.
055.Who always make you laugh?
Sister ,nicholas,Jingshi , edwardKOR, lionel, Venus.
056. Do you speak other language other than English?
uhhuh.
057. Are you blond?
no leh.
058. What's your middle name?
Weiting
059. What are you doing tomorrow?
work work work.
060. What do you think you are like?
stupid
061. Who will you choose to die with?
i die is my own thing , pull ppl in for what
062. Where have you been today?
No where.
063. What game do you play often?
Currently, none these few days.
064. Who are you missing right now?
Him.
065. If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?
I once chose love, now i've regretted, so i'll choose friends.
Love never lasts, but friendship does.
066. What are you doing right now?
Nothing.
067. Which primary school are you from?
Temasek
068. Name 3 colours that you like.
Black, Hotpink, Red
069. What emotion do you like to show?
happy happy
070. What is life to you?
l, i , f,e . meaningless.
071. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Tell someone. if it doesnt helps, just think about it.
072. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Sisterrrrr, Jason, chenhan.
073. Who do you admire the most?
Those ppl who really can predict whn they die.
074. Which month are you born in?
August
075. How are you feeling right now?
Sleepy.
076. What is the time now?
8.13 pm
077. Where are you now?
HOMEEEE
078. What colour did you use to dye hair?
i used to dye my hair once, golden, but dye back alrdy
079. Why are you doing this test?
Cause sister asked me to.
080. What do you do when you're moody?
stare at the computer screen, if outside, at night, stare at the night sky.
081. At which age you wish to get marry?
21 or 22, :D
082. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
Friends
083. Do you think you have enough confidence?
eh, sometimes yes, sometimes, no.
084. Who is the person you trust the most?
bleah [:
085. Will you love your crush/boyfriend forever?
If , he tiongxim, then i tiongxim la.
086. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
nothing.
087. What is your goal for this year?
Go 3e2
090. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
eh, dunno.
091. What feeling do you hate the most?
Jealousy.
092. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
uhhuh
093. Do you believe in God?
LIKE DUH.
094. Who cares for you the most?
know le also wont tell you. dont wan make u jealous. LOL
095. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
GOD. Family. Friends.
096. What'll you bring when you fight?
My hand
097. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Confessing everytime.
098. How would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Uh, sad? i guess.
099. What if your stead two-timed you?
ask him to F the wall. Then byebye!
100. Love with a guarantee of heartbreak , or never to be loved at all?
Never to be loved at all.
10 people to do }
Anyone. im good right. HAHAHA
3:33 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Happy 1 month to the JB sisters!
*cheeeeers*
*claaapppps *
Happy 5 months DEARRRRR :D
okay, last month wrong, is 4 th, paiseh :X
Today, is almost a disaster!
First, started off with the weather,
morning was fine. yeah, VERY NICE.
Then proceeded to Bedok inter. waited, only abim showed up.
kennedy & jinghui showed up after that,
& yeah, they know how go, so ask abim follow them instead.
Then REYNA came :D
she didnt go the outing, but BAND instead.
walao, band , u happy to have her lah -.-
Chatted, & her bus came,
so left me alone. AGAIN. -.-
Finally, the 4 Queens arrive, :D
then bused to marine parade.
The funny thing is,
when we all turn our head, the next bus, we jitao saw shabana face -.-
THEN ALL OF US LAUGH
LOL. LIKE WE ALL MACHIAM SIAO PPL LIDDAT :X
walk walk walk & walked till we reached the pit.
walao, so far away -.-
walk till my legs can breakkkkkkkk.
settled down,
& i saw a spider!
i anyhow take one bag, i still ask whose bag,
no one ans me,
so i jus take and hit the spider :X
bbq, and suddenly, RAIN
walao -.-
no games lor, sian laaaa.
Then everyone hide inside shelter.
got disposable bbq thingy, so bbq inside the shelter. :D
& we all got very very very wet O:
at 3 plus, ms candy prince came to fetch her.
romanticccc :D
me & dear went off, & i got stomachache. bloodyyy :X
i think i poison myself ._.
Bused to parkway & took 135,
i was super scared on the bus lo.
like dont know why the bus go here & there.
then i tot i take wrong bus
i kept looking around :X
finally reach the building there, rushed up :X
After that, sister became ahlian!
Cindy became HIGH
Xinyi became HIGHER
kenneth is fine -,-
nicholas & lionel dont need say, not high.
They go eat.
i go home. LOL.
walked home in the Rain. its nice.
like sister says, walk in the rain [:
makemewhole,healit,dontletitbreak,again.
9:40 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
HAPPY 201th POST!
no. 200th was crap.
hahahahah! im like yeah,
high. & i sended some email to someone which shouldnt have been sent.
if you're reading my blog now,
please please, i really didnt wanted to send it.
sorry! :X
2012. are we really going to die?
i hope not.
4 more years.
I need a new life.
one that is non-hurtful.
no. 200th was crap.
hahahahah! im like yeah,
high. & i sended some email to someone which shouldnt have been sent.
if you're reading my blog now,
please please, i really didnt wanted to send it.
sorry! :X
2012. are we really going to die?
i hope not.
4 more years.
I need a new life.
one that is non-hurtful.
5:32 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Monday, June 16, 2008
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I VERY MISERABLE
D. IM SORRY!
I VERY MISERABLE
D. IM SORRY!
11:31 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Time to reply tag ._.
Jialing : yeap! haha, cool huh.
zech : yeah, not like you. old old old! cant do anything! :D
venus : yeah :D you right manxzxz
YanYi : LOL.
Chenkai : old man -.-
Jasper : EH BYEBYE! HA. xD
xinmiao : i nvr loved you. ._. dont like u laaaa.
LKL : lol. extra 20 cents :D
Zech : where got.
Chiumei : canot C&P siah -.-
Reyna : hahaa. where got, im jus expressing myself :D
kailing : when im free :D
Jingshi : i love jingshi too [:
Perling : HAHAHHA! glad u know {:
LKL : LOL?! lydia -,-
aiyunn : no. i cant [:
weitong : im fine. hahaha. you?
3:39 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Create your own Friend Test here
LKL got a test too.
hard lah -.-
okay. since its fun. i wanna do tooo! :D:D
2:51 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
We used to be so happy together,
always laughing at each other's jokes,
now something just tore us apart,
and I now realise how much I miss you.
So if I cried a river for you,
Would you come back?
If I would stand by you,
Will you come back?
If I beg and say,
please don't go away,
would you even look back?
Would you even look back at me?
If I started chasing you,
would you let me catch up?
If I fell would you try to catch me?
And I just want to say,
if I told you I loved you,
Would you come back to me?
--
I miss you
The laughs we shared
The times we had
I miss our friendship
The way it used to be
The way it was before i told you
I miss your smile
The sincere happiness inside
The grin that came when we talked
I miss the way you called me yours
I wish i could go back
And take back what i said
When i confided in you the feelings i had
We can never be us, but our friendship will last...
I thought it was true, but it seems it was all a dream wish
I've driven you away and i tears me apart
Being with you would always brighten my day
But it seems that i have driven my gleaming sun away
I miss you
But at least my memories remain
Keeping the dagger from my heart...but never truly taking it away
--
maybe you'll see how torn I am,
I can't give up on you,
you're my friend, if not only more
what am I to you these days?
an acquaince?
one that you've forgotten?
I wish you could see what you were doing to me,
I can tell you and tell you over and over again,
but you don't get it.
come back to me.
--
are you thinking this?
:
When I try and hurt you
you always seem to laugh
like it's all one huge game to you
that's all just in the past.
It's like my words dont matter
like my blows dont mean a thing
You ignore what all I'm doing
as though you dont give a damn.
It's like somehow you know I love you
though I dont know how you can..
When I try to hate you
I cry so deep inside.
'Cause when I try to hate you
it's my love I try to hide
;
or have you really forgotten me?
i hope not.
--
will you catch me
when I fall?
Or will you watch me
hit the floor,
then walk away
and close the door,
pretending that you
didn't see
the collapse of
who I pretend to be?
--
when those words came out from your mouth
my heart shattered into a thousand pieces,
no, why not a million or billion instead?
why not take back your words,
and this time i will shut up & you'll lead my way.
the way, back to your heart.
always laughing at each other's jokes,
now something just tore us apart,
and I now realise how much I miss you.
So if I cried a river for you,
Would you come back?
If I would stand by you,
Will you come back?
If I beg and say,
please don't go away,
would you even look back?
Would you even look back at me?
If I started chasing you,
would you let me catch up?
If I fell would you try to catch me?
And I just want to say,
if I told you I loved you,
Would you come back to me?
--
I miss you
The laughs we shared
The times we had
I miss our friendship
The way it used to be
The way it was before i told you
I miss your smile
The sincere happiness inside
The grin that came when we talked
I miss the way you called me yours
I wish i could go back
And take back what i said
When i confided in you the feelings i had
We can never be us, but our friendship will last...
I thought it was true, but it seems it was all a dream wish
I've driven you away and i tears me apart
Being with you would always brighten my day
But it seems that i have driven my gleaming sun away
I miss you
But at least my memories remain
Keeping the dagger from my heart...but never truly taking it away
--
maybe you'll see how torn I am,
I can't give up on you,
you're my friend, if not only more
what am I to you these days?
an acquaince?
one that you've forgotten?
I wish you could see what you were doing to me,
I can tell you and tell you over and over again,
but you don't get it.
come back to me.
--
are you thinking this?
:
When I try and hurt you
you always seem to laugh
like it's all one huge game to you
that's all just in the past.
It's like my words dont matter
like my blows dont mean a thing
You ignore what all I'm doing
as though you dont give a damn.
It's like somehow you know I love you
though I dont know how you can..
When I try to hate you
I cry so deep inside.
'Cause when I try to hate you
it's my love I try to hide
;
or have you really forgotten me?
i hope not.
--
will you catch me
when I fall?
Or will you watch me
hit the floor,
then walk away
and close the door,
pretending that you
didn't see
the collapse of
who I pretend to be?
--
when those words came out from your mouth
my heart shattered into a thousand pieces,
no, why not a million or billion instead?
why not take back your words,
and this time i will shut up & you'll lead my way.
the way, back to your heart.
7:54 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
HELLLOOOOOO :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!
happy day. i got no idea why.
LOL. i saw lionel just now.
(not lionel EEEEEE kay, is my primary school lionel )
:D
the ball almost hit me & gerafin -.-
scream like ~!@#$%^&*( .
kay, bye!
im not stupid. yeah!
[:
gerafinwantedtoleavethebasketballcourt,
butidontwanto,causeiwant towaitforyou.
]:
happy day. i got no idea why.
LOL. i saw lionel just now.
(not lionel EEEEEE kay, is my primary school lionel )
:D
the ball almost hit me & gerafin -.-
scream like ~!@#$%^&*( .
kay, bye!
im not stupid. yeah!
[:
gerafinwantedtoleavethebasketballcourt,
butidontwanto,causeiwant towaitforyou.
]:
3:39 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
dont let me go.
dont let me go.
dont let me go.
keep me in your heart for always will you?
please, dont let our memories fade away.
happy ones, sad ones.
dont let them fade away.
i wont forget that day, when we walked back tgth,
let fate bring us back again, even though we've gone separate ways.
uoyevoli d.
im sorry for that.
dont let me go.
dont let me go.
keep me in your heart for always will you?
please, dont let our memories fade away.
happy ones, sad ones.
dont let them fade away.
i wont forget that day, when we walked back tgth,
let fate bring us back again, even though we've gone separate ways.
uoyevoli d.
im sorry for that.
7:52 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
let the pictures talk. not me
Thursday & Saturday
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past memories.
-----Loves
Wth laaaa.
im like getting uglier & uglier day by day -.-
stupid.
6:25 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Friday the 13th.
if we stead, today will be our first month.
imissyou. like yes, seriously.
11.11 why do i keep seeing you?
someone miss me? u tell me 1 mth ago, i still believe
hahaha :D
im lazy to blog la. lazy to reply tag also. -.-
1 month never properly talk to you already.
hais ]:
if we stead, today will be our first month.
imissyou. like yes, seriously.
11.11 why do i keep seeing you?
someone miss me? u tell me 1 mth ago, i still believe
hahaha :D
im lazy to blog la. lazy to reply tag also. -.-
1 month never properly talk to you already.
hais ]:
10:56 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
9:27 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
yeah, its all my fault
this time, last time, forever.
its like, because my bill is too high,
you hate me, you dont care about me.
its my fault that i msged too much
despite the warning u & papa gave
yeah, sorry alright?
i dont know how to say it in words. :/
just now, when papa drop or the vase fell by itself,
i stood there, holding the cloth, waiting for you to take it,
but, i was the only one near the kitchen,
in the end, u ask bro to take the plastic bag instead?
you know how much it hurts me?
like you're treating as if im invisible.
since you dont treat me as ur daughter,
but, i still treat u as my mum.
yeah, since you know my blog, read it.
sorry.
this time, last time, forever.
its like, because my bill is too high,
you hate me, you dont care about me.
its my fault that i msged too much
despite the warning u & papa gave
yeah, sorry alright?
i dont know how to say it in words. :/
just now, when papa drop or the vase fell by itself,
i stood there, holding the cloth, waiting for you to take it,
but, i was the only one near the kitchen,
in the end, u ask bro to take the plastic bag instead?
you know how much it hurts me?
like you're treating as if im invisible.
since you dont treat me as ur daughter,
but, i still treat u as my mum.
yeah, since you know my blog, read it.
sorry.
8:18 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
HELLO! please dont msg me anymore ppl :D
jus call if there's anything.
or ask me to call u back [:
dont ask me why okay :D:D
who say i dont reply tag ]:
i got okay. OPEN UR EYES WIDER & READ MY POST
for the other recent tags
jus call if there's anything.
or ask me to call u back [:
dont ask me why okay :D:D
who say i dont reply tag ]:
i got okay. OPEN UR EYES WIDER & READ MY POST
for the other recent tags
YanYi : lol! i know i very good.
Gerafin : how can i not be ? T-T
Jialing : where got alot? LOL. very little liao okay :D ,
thats something i use crayon to colour with :D
Xinyi : haha [: yeah.
Venus : LOL. talk talk talk to you.
Sinyi : got ehhhh. ]:
Xinmiao : -.-
Jiahui : what is that?
Chiumei : haha , thanks for the tag.
Yanyi : who say?
Labels: imissyou
12:08 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
you hate me.
i know, but i cant change anything already.
you've left, i've got to wake up & accept this fact.
but i dont know why,
i always hold on to things im suppose to let go.
i hope you think the same way,
about leaving.
please, i cant stand it, i dont want to cry anymore,
i dont want to get hurt anymore.
im stupid, yes, thats TRUE.
i cant make it, i need you,
YES YOU.
i cant explain how i feel now.
you will never see this post anyway, you dont read my blog.
you dont even remember my url.
I hurt u so much ,
& you hurt me twice as much.
im sorry, i only cared bout how i felt
but not urs. :/
whats the point, you wont come back.
never.
i know, but i cant change anything already.
you've left, i've got to wake up & accept this fact.
but i dont know why,
i always hold on to things im suppose to let go.
i hope you think the same way,
about leaving.
please, i cant stand it, i dont want to cry anymore,
i dont want to get hurt anymore.
im stupid, yes, thats TRUE.
i cant make it, i need you,
YES YOU.
i cant explain how i feel now.
you will never see this post anyway, you dont read my blog.
you dont even remember my url.
I hurt u so much ,
& you hurt me twice as much.
im sorry, i only cared bout how i felt
but not urs. :/
whats the point, you wont come back.
never.
10:17 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
My blog is like, so dead
hahaha :D
yesterday during prayer,
i was half asleep :X
cause earlier i was sleepingggg :D
then pray halfway, got someone knock my door
then i go shout,
then i using ear piece,
i forget praying
i go lie down -.-
venus say , dont know what i saying
then suddenly no sound from me.
LOL. next time canot sleep before prayer -.-
all i rmb is, i mumble mumble mumble :X
then i find my pillow super comfortable. LOL.
-
after prayer, slept.
till today morning O:
yesterday's dream was super scary!
i was walking in damai,
i wanted to go the rooftop,
Then i was looking for the lift, (damai has no lift)
suddenly, got 1 group of guys walk pass.
they are super familiar :/
then i walk pass them, i smile at them.
then suddenly one of them grab me D:
then ask me got money anot,
i say i dont have ( i seriously dont have )
then they go take out their knife,
point at me D:
ask me if i got money again.
then i say dont have.
they go use the knife slit on my leg. OOOOO:
i could feel the pain lo.
then got 3 big cuts on my leg after they let me go,
bleeding like shitez,
Then i forget everything le. LOL.
-
Today is going to be boring.
for sure.
hahaha :D
yesterday during prayer,
i was half asleep :X
cause earlier i was sleepingggg :D
then pray halfway, got someone knock my door
then i go shout,
then i using ear piece,
i forget praying
i go lie down -.-
venus say , dont know what i saying
then suddenly no sound from me.
LOL. next time canot sleep before prayer -.-
all i rmb is, i mumble mumble mumble :X
then i find my pillow super comfortable. LOL.
-
after prayer, slept.
till today morning O:
yesterday's dream was super scary!
i was walking in damai,
i wanted to go the rooftop,
Then i was looking for the lift, (damai has no lift)
suddenly, got 1 group of guys walk pass.
they are super familiar :/
then i walk pass them, i smile at them.
then suddenly one of them grab me D:
then ask me got money anot,
i say i dont have ( i seriously dont have )
then they go take out their knife,
point at me D:
ask me if i got money again.
then i say dont have.
they go use the knife slit on my leg. OOOOO:
i could feel the pain lo.
then got 3 big cuts on my leg after they let me go,
bleeding like shitez,
Then i forget everything le. LOL.
-
Today is going to be boring.
for sure.
8:06 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Tagged by Venus & Jingshi
copied from venus blog :D
1)If u are given a choice between friends and love which one will u choose?
Friends?
2)what do u want the most?
25.04.08
3)Do u believe in afterlife?
idk
4)Do u hate ur friends sometimes?
like yeah? & they hate me sometimes too
5)when do u wish to die?
now, tmr , or the day after tmr
6)Do u believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
uhhuh :D seeen before
7)what impossible things have u wished for?
Him to come back.
8) do u believe in eternal love?
only with God, there will be eternal love
9)Have u broken someone's heart untill he/she wants to commit suicide?
How would i know? dont want to know either
10)what feeling do u love the most?
Being loved.
11)what requirement do u wish from ur other half?
trust.
12)What feeling do u hate the most?
jealously . ( how spell?)
13)Do u cherish every friendship of urs?
See who lo.
14)Is there anything u looking forward to in the next few weeks?
Yes.
15) what do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
Stay with the Lord
16)who do u hope to be always there for u?
Him ( never will )
ABFJR.
Sister.
17)do u find life meaningless?
yes, totally.
18)Do u treasure ur life?
No. i dont
19)what kind of people do u hate the most?
Irritating, (okay, i hate myself cause im irritating -.- )
20) Whats your last wish before you leave the Earth?
Explain everything & ask for forgiveness from him.
Remove one question from above and add in ur own personal question and answer den tag 8 people in ur list.Whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.
1. Sister!
2. W. aiyun
3. Jiahui
4.Johnson
5. Yunshan
6. Eunice YIK
7. zech
8. CALLI CHUA
(:
copied from venus blog :D
1)If u are given a choice between friends and love which one will u choose?
Friends?
2)what do u want the most?
25.04.08
3)Do u believe in afterlife?
idk
4)Do u hate ur friends sometimes?
like yeah? & they hate me sometimes too
5)when do u wish to die?
now, tmr , or the day after tmr
6)Do u believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
uhhuh :D seeen before
7)what impossible things have u wished for?
Him to come back.
8) do u believe in eternal love?
only with God, there will be eternal love
9)Have u broken someone's heart untill he/she wants to commit suicide?
How would i know? dont want to know either
10)what feeling do u love the most?
Being loved.
11)what requirement do u wish from ur other half?
trust.
12)What feeling do u hate the most?
jealously . ( how spell?)
13)Do u cherish every friendship of urs?
See who lo.
14)Is there anything u looking forward to in the next few weeks?
Yes.
15) what do u think is the most important thing in ur life?
Stay with the Lord
16)who do u hope to be always there for u?
Him ( never will )
ABFJR.
Sister.
17)do u find life meaningless?
yes, totally.
18)Do u treasure ur life?
No. i dont
19)what kind of people do u hate the most?
Irritating, (okay, i hate myself cause im irritating -.- )
20) Whats your last wish before you leave the Earth?
Explain everything & ask for forgiveness from him.
Remove one question from above and add in ur own personal question and answer den tag 8 people in ur list.Whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.
1. Sister!
2. W. aiyun
3. Jiahui
4.Johnson
5. Yunshan
6. Eunice YIK
7. zech
8. CALLI CHUA
(:
7:46 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
TAGGED BY Sister & Gerafin & Jingshi
RULE: People who have been tagged have to start with 10 random facts about themselves. At the end of the quiz , you will have to choose 10 people and tag them about this quiz.
1) I get drunk on COKE
2) I Love SHC
3) I Love GOD
4) I love SHC.
5) Cartoons are my addiction :D
6) school is the best time during weekdays :D & i love it
7) I am super hyper @ times
8) Im sticked to my computer. losing it means losing my life
9) I dont treasure my life [:
10) I am LAME.
These people are tagged!
1) Venus EE
2) Chen Han
3) Chen Kai
4) Feon
5) Aiyun
6) sweetsweet
7) Calli chua
8) Zeting
9) YanYi
10 )Nicholas
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RULE: People who have been tagged have to start with 10 random facts about themselves. At the end of the quiz , you will have to choose 10 people and tag them about this quiz.
1) I get drunk on COKE
2) I Love SHC
3) I Love GOD
4) I love SHC.
5) Cartoons are my addiction :D
6) school is the best time during weekdays :D & i love it
7) I am super hyper @ times
8) Im sticked to my computer. losing it means losing my life
9) I dont treasure my life [:
10) I am LAME.
These people are tagged!
1) Venus EE
2) Chen Han
3) Chen Kai
4) Feon
5) Aiyun
6) sweetsweet
7) Calli chua
8) Zeting
9) YanYi
10 )Nicholas
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7:37 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.uhhuh..
tagged by Venus ._.
lol .
1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Just want you to know
.just want you to know im finally going to let you go? ' relieved i guess? '
2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Helpless when she smiles
i will be helpless? if that girl smiles. ohmy -.-
3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Sad story
always sad -.-
4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
I can wait forever
wait for my marriage ? stupid.
5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
I dont love you no more
LOL.
6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Just the girl
The song title tells everything [:
7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Gui Ji
All about love? LOL.
8. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
Promise
promises -.- & breakdowns
9. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
Thanks for the Mmrs
HUH. NO BYEBYE PLEASE.
10. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Welcome to my life
welcome welcome -.-, but i dont run away
11. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
不公平
=.=. die le then play love song?
wait, ITS NOT FAIRRRR. WHY I DIE?!
12. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
我要为你戒烟
eh. willing to change for my love one?
but, please, i dont smk.
13. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Time machine
LOL. no i guess. i need a time machine to go back in time -.-
14. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Inconsolable
im too sad already, till canot comfort me -.-
but! die die also mus comfort me lah D:
15. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
Losing myself
huh?!
16. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Breakdown
huh, breakdown makes me happy?
17. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Everytime
wish for one more day with you. -.-
18. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Happily never after
umm. i think its a no?
19. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
The day that i die
wth ?
20. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
When you look me in the eyes
look him in the eyes? & poke his eyeballs out! & run with the candy :D
21. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
S.O.S
LOL?! seriously in need. -.-
22. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
I need you tonight
lol. i guess so ? :/
23. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Crazy
LOL. No wonder this is his/her theme song, siao one mah
24. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Lies
liar O:
25. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
不公平
-.- , funeral this song, wedding also this.
NVM LAH. WEDDING IS SUPPOSE TO HAVE LOVE SONGGGG :D
tagged (:
1.Sister!
2. Jingshi
3. sweetsweet.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.uhhuh..
tagged by Venus ._.
lol .
1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Just want you to know
.just want you to know im finally going to let you go? ' relieved i guess? '
2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Helpless when she smiles
i will be helpless? if that girl smiles. ohmy -.-
3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Sad story
always sad -.-
4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
I can wait forever
wait for my marriage ? stupid.
5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
I dont love you no more
LOL.
6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Just the girl
The song title tells everything [:
7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Gui Ji
All about love? LOL.
8. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
Promise
promises -.- & breakdowns
9. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
Thanks for the Mmrs
HUH. NO BYEBYE PLEASE.
10. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Welcome to my life
welcome welcome -.-, but i dont run away
11. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
不公平
=.=. die le then play love song?
wait, ITS NOT FAIRRRR. WHY I DIE?!
12. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
我要为你戒烟
eh. willing to change for my love one?
but, please, i dont smk.
13. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Time machine
LOL. no i guess. i need a time machine to go back in time -.-
14. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Inconsolable
im too sad already, till canot comfort me -.-
but! die die also mus comfort me lah D:
15. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
Losing myself
huh?!
16. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Breakdown
huh, breakdown makes me happy?
17. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Everytime
wish for one more day with you. -.-
18. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Happily never after
umm. i think its a no?
19. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
The day that i die
wth ?
20. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
When you look me in the eyes
look him in the eyes? & poke his eyeballs out! & run with the candy :D
21. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
S.O.S
LOL?! seriously in need. -.-
22. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
I need you tonight
lol. i guess so ? :/
23. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Crazy
LOL. No wonder this is his/her theme song, siao one mah
24. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Lies
liar O:
25. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
不公平
-.- , funeral this song, wedding also this.
NVM LAH. WEDDING IS SUPPOSE TO HAVE LOVE SONGGGG :D
tagged (:
1.Sister!
2. Jingshi
3. sweetsweet.
7:03 PM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Friday, June 6, 2008
True meaning of laughter?
yesterday
early in the morning , woked up & bath
went down to eat w. mummy.
aft eating, mummy send me to the bus stop.
on the bus, got ppl say i GL ?!
the girl was like ' OI, GL EH, '
im the only person ard? i jus walked off [:
waited & waited
then mingyi told me change time O:
Since got time, i go library :D:D
then borrowed booook!
went off to meet mingyi @ control station.
she was with her cousins.
im like, odd kay. only 1 friend :X
trained to harbourfront, then went in vivo to take train to sentosaaaa
then they played with water, while i sit there & enjoy the view
cause of some personal reasons, i cant go in water :D
Then got 1 ball hit till my shoulder. pain ]:
got this shuai ge come & say
' umm, u okay mah? '
i wanted to melt already kay [:
then i nvr lift my head up cause got tears on my eyes already D:
really very very pain.
Then around 5 + go off.
went to take bus to harbourfront.
then mingyi persuaded me to stay =.=
& the thing i cant believe is , i stayed.
From 630 wait till 720 , mingyi's friends finally showed up.
while waiting, i was like kp-ing how long they took
& singing songs to mingyi till she cant take it :X
went to eatttt, they eat, not me
it was so long can D:
& mingyi said something that she wasnt suppose to D:
*criessssss *
Then they eat the food like so nice liddat lo -.-
i drink only :D
wait till go home then eat mama cook de.
aft that, went to walk around ? :/
then mrt-ed home :D
reached home aboutttttt 1020?
charged phone & called in joyce phone
mummy kept knocking the door when i was praying
when finish, went out , ask her why she kept knocking
she ask alot questions.
' WHY SO LONG?! '
' WHY I HEAR U TALKING TO PPL ?! '
' WHY SO SECRETIVE?! '
zzz? then eating dinner
she ask me wan noodle or rice
i choose noodle,
daddy came in kitchen & asked why i eating noodle
my mum said
' U DONT KNOW MEH, SHE EAT JUS WAN ENTERTAIN US ONLY '
zzzzz! then i jus ignore.
On comp, & attituded alot of people ]:
sorry ehs. really no mood.
P. MINGYI. WATCH WHAT U SAYYYYY! ]:
i dont like him kay D:
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replies to tags :
Sinyi : no pictures D:
Yanyi : [: i dont miss ya :D , jk.
Gerafin : yes, i know. HAHAHA
Jialing : LOL. nono [:
Jiahui : talk to you u also dont reply de. zzz
Cindy : hey CINN :D
Jingshi : Jingshi ;D :D
Kailing : nope. not i do de ;D
Jiahui : i guess so?
Felicia : LOL. mummy is siao O: ai ni ai ni ai ni tooo :D
Venus : veeeenusss! veeeenusss! :DDD
Zech : gum ur head :D
Xinmiao : Wo bu ai ni [:
yesterday
early in the morning , woked up & bath
went down to eat w. mummy.
aft eating, mummy send me to the bus stop.
on the bus, got ppl say i GL ?!
the girl was like ' OI, GL EH, '
im the only person ard? i jus walked off [:
waited & waited
then mingyi told me change time O:
Since got time, i go library :D:D
then borrowed booook!
went off to meet mingyi @ control station.
she was with her cousins.
im like, odd kay. only 1 friend :X
trained to harbourfront, then went in vivo to take train to sentosaaaa
then they played with water, while i sit there & enjoy the view
cause of some personal reasons, i cant go in water :D
Then got 1 ball hit till my shoulder. pain ]:
got this shuai ge come & say
' umm, u okay mah? '
i wanted to melt already kay [:
then i nvr lift my head up cause got tears on my eyes already D:
really very very pain.
Then around 5 + go off.
went to take bus to harbourfront.
then mingyi persuaded me to stay =.=
& the thing i cant believe is , i stayed.
From 630 wait till 720 , mingyi's friends finally showed up.
while waiting, i was like kp-ing how long they took
& singing songs to mingyi till she cant take it :X
went to eatttt, they eat, not me
it was so long can D:
& mingyi said something that she wasnt suppose to D:
*criessssss *
Then they eat the food like so nice liddat lo -.-
i drink only :D
wait till go home then eat mama cook de.
aft that, went to walk around ? :/
then mrt-ed home :D
reached home aboutttttt 1020?
charged phone & called in joyce phone
mummy kept knocking the door when i was praying
when finish, went out , ask her why she kept knocking
she ask alot questions.
' WHY SO LONG?! '
' WHY I HEAR U TALKING TO PPL ?! '
' WHY SO SECRETIVE?! '
zzz? then eating dinner
she ask me wan noodle or rice
i choose noodle,
daddy came in kitchen & asked why i eating noodle
my mum said
' U DONT KNOW MEH, SHE EAT JUS WAN ENTERTAIN US ONLY '
zzzzz! then i jus ignore.
On comp, & attituded alot of people ]:
sorry ehs. really no mood.
P. MINGYI. WATCH WHAT U SAYYYYY! ]:
i dont like him kay D:
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replies to tags :
Sinyi : no pictures D:
Yanyi : [: i dont miss ya :D , jk.
Gerafin : yes, i know. HAHAHA
Jialing : LOL. nono [:
Jiahui : talk to you u also dont reply de. zzz
Cindy : hey CINN :D
Jingshi : Jingshi ;D :D
Kailing : nope. not i do de ;D
Jiahui : i guess so?
Felicia : LOL. mummy is siao O: ai ni ai ni ai ni tooo :D
Venus : veeeenusss! veeeenusss! :DDD
Zech : gum ur head :D
Xinmiao : Wo bu ai ni [:
2:52 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
no. no more please.
go away, i dont wanna see you.
please.
sorry, no mood for anything.
seriously.
go away, i dont wanna see you.
please.
sorry, no mood for anything.
seriously.
9:16 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Now I know.
My heart is broken.
But I can’t let you know that.
Nor can I let you go.
At random parts of the day I start shaking
From the tears…that you left me
People gave me hope
People gave me doubt.
I feel like an idiot,
To let my heart break.
To entrust it in a guys hands.
When I know…multiple guys that have
Shattered
Ripped
Torn open
Other women’s hearts.
Broken
I feel like a broken doll
Shatter into pieces
Pieces all over the floor
With no one there to put me back together
...no one...
Will fix me
No one will love me
No one will help me breath
not feel things that is real
not to even to tell me that I’m alive
Now I know what it's like to be alone.
Now I know what it's like to have a broken heart of my own.
Tell me will my heart ever heal?
All I want is to go back to when our love was real.
Though I try so hard I can't forget, it all comes back when I see your face.
No matter how hard I scream I just can't seem to erase.
All the long night's I've proved that I cared.
Let these rains wash away this love we once shared.
Words can hurt and words can kill,
but pain is not always the intent.
And you are so naive with your words,
not realizing that they cause me torment.
Love can heal and love is life,
but sometimes love is just not enough.
And you don't understand that I am sensitive,
because you seem to believe that I'm tough.
They say, promises were made to be broken.
But if they were, then why were they made?
And you probably believe in that saying
since you often break your promises, unafraid.
Your words can bruise me, cut me, and break me.
But it is not just the insulting jokes I care about.
And it's mostly the promises you are always making
when we both know you'll break them, without a doubt.
At first I did not realize I was crying
Until the tears mixed with the ink
Obscuring the words I was trying to send
To you. The words I’ve been trying to say
For days. Weeks. A long time, my friend.
My eyes turned to the window, staring up at the sky
Praying to the heavens, begging them to answer me why.
No love for me? Nothing real? Something forever
But what’s the point when we were never meant to be together?
When he says he love you, it means eventually
He’s going to be loving another.
Now the only person who is wiping these tears are me
Not like you were around to help me. It’s fine.
My fault for thinking you were ever mine.
But I’m just a fool who gave her heart away
Who would do anything to make you stay
But that’s just not how it’s going to be.
Everything has to end eventually.
So I’m saying goodbye to an empty face
I’m whispering my last will to a closed space.
Because you were gone a long time ago
It just took me awhile to realize.
Guess that’s what I get for being slow.
So this is my goodbye to you
And the memories we shared, too.
This is my last hurrah for love
You can have it back.
It just isn’t what I thought it could be.
Guess I’m just hopeless.
With my tears for my lullaby.
bye, forever.
(credits to gerafin? O.O? )
My heart is broken.
But I can’t let you know that.
Nor can I let you go.
At random parts of the day I start shaking
From the tears…that you left me
People gave me hope
People gave me doubt.
I feel like an idiot,
To let my heart break.
To entrust it in a guys hands.
When I know…multiple guys that have
Shattered
Ripped
Torn open
Other women’s hearts.
Broken
I feel like a broken doll
Shatter into pieces
Pieces all over the floor
With no one there to put me back together
...no one...
Will fix me
No one will love me
No one will help me breath
not feel things that is real
not to even to tell me that I’m alive
Now I know what it's like to be alone.
Now I know what it's like to have a broken heart of my own.
Tell me will my heart ever heal?
All I want is to go back to when our love was real.
Though I try so hard I can't forget, it all comes back when I see your face.
No matter how hard I scream I just can't seem to erase.
All the long night's I've proved that I cared.
Let these rains wash away this love we once shared.
Words can hurt and words can kill,
but pain is not always the intent.
And you are so naive with your words,
not realizing that they cause me torment.
Love can heal and love is life,
but sometimes love is just not enough.
And you don't understand that I am sensitive,
because you seem to believe that I'm tough.
They say, promises were made to be broken.
But if they were, then why were they made?
And you probably believe in that saying
since you often break your promises, unafraid.
Your words can bruise me, cut me, and break me.
But it is not just the insulting jokes I care about.
And it's mostly the promises you are always making
when we both know you'll break them, without a doubt.
At first I did not realize I was crying
Until the tears mixed with the ink
Obscuring the words I was trying to send
To you. The words I’ve been trying to say
For days. Weeks. A long time, my friend.
My eyes turned to the window, staring up at the sky
Praying to the heavens, begging them to answer me why.
No love for me? Nothing real? Something forever
But what’s the point when we were never meant to be together?
When he says he love you, it means eventually
He’s going to be loving another.
Now the only person who is wiping these tears are me
Not like you were around to help me. It’s fine.
My fault for thinking you were ever mine.
But I’m just a fool who gave her heart away
Who would do anything to make you stay
But that’s just not how it’s going to be.
Everything has to end eventually.
So I’m saying goodbye to an empty face
I’m whispering my last will to a closed space.
Because you were gone a long time ago
It just took me awhile to realize.
Guess that’s what I get for being slow.
So this is my goodbye to you
And the memories we shared, too.
This is my last hurrah for love
You can have it back.
It just isn’t what I thought it could be.
Guess I’m just hopeless.
With my tears for my lullaby.
bye, forever.
(credits to gerafin? O.O? )
9:28 AM
Yours truly.
Yours truly.