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Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Now I know.
My heart is broken. But I can’t let you know that. Nor can I let you go. At random parts of the day I start shaking From the tears…that you left me People gave me hope People gave me doubt. I feel like an idiot, To let my heart break. To entrust it in a guys hands. When I know…multiple guys that have Shattered Ripped Torn open Other women’s hearts. Broken I feel like a broken doll Shatter into pieces Pieces all over the floor With no one there to put me back together ...no one... Will fix me No one will love me No one will help me breath not feel things that is real not to even to tell me that I’m alive Now I know what it's like to be alone. Now I know what it's like to have a broken heart of my own. Tell me will my heart ever heal? All I want is to go back to when our love was real. Though I try so hard I can't forget, it all comes back when I see your face. No matter how hard I scream I just can't seem to erase. All the long night's I've proved that I cared. Let these rains wash away this love we once shared. Words can hurt and words can kill, but pain is not always the intent. And you are so naive with your words, not realizing that they cause me torment. Love can heal and love is life, but sometimes love is just not enough. And you don't understand that I am sensitive, because you seem to believe that I'm tough. They say, promises were made to be broken. But if they were, then why were they made? And you probably believe in that saying since you often break your promises, unafraid. Your words can bruise me, cut me, and break me. But it is not just the insulting jokes I care about. And it's mostly the promises you are always making when we both know you'll break them, without a doubt. At first I did not realize I was crying Until the tears mixed with the ink Obscuring the words I was trying to send To you. The words I’ve been trying to say For days. Weeks. A long time, my friend. My eyes turned to the window, staring up at the sky Praying to the heavens, begging them to answer me why. No love for me? Nothing real? Something forever But what’s the point when we were never meant to be together? When he says he love you, it means eventually He’s going to be loving another. Now the only person who is wiping these tears are me Not like you were around to help me. It’s fine. My fault for thinking you were ever mine. But I’m just a fool who gave her heart away Who would do anything to make you stay But that’s just not how it’s going to be. Everything has to end eventually. So I’m saying goodbye to an empty face I’m whispering my last will to a closed space. Because you were gone a long time ago It just took me awhile to realize. Guess that’s what I get for being slow. So this is my goodbye to you And the memories we shared, too. This is my last hurrah for love You can have it back. It just isn’t what I thought it could be. Guess I’m just hopeless. With my tears for my lullaby. bye, forever. (credits to gerafin? O.O? )
9:28 AM
Yours truly. |
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