Love locked down

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Oh yeah, Not forgetting.

Happy birthday to

Zhiqing

and

mummaye :D

7:02 AM
Yours truly.

With dad's specs

Shoot ur ass!

freaking act cute, yes i know -_-

yay ! my new mp444444444444444444 :D

opps, sorry! (:

ohshit, i look fat.

Megan! :D

Heh heh ^^

Mummy & Tico! :D

I didnt knew i took this photo O:

I look FAT! zOMG.
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Somehow, today was a disaster(?)

For me, Yes it is. LOL.

Early in the morning, got woken up by Tico's message,

Then i Fell asleep AGAIN. -__-

Then my alarm rang & my phone drop & battery dropped out. cool -_-

Bathed, Eat, Go 717 There wait for everyone.

Yanyi wore contacts O:

Coool, im getting mine tmrw(?)

think so :D

Tooked bus to SSA, sat with I-forgot-her-name.

LOL.

Reached there, warmup, & Slacked slacked awhile,

then got briefing.

After that, went down to dont-know-what-room & waited there?

changed & make up.

My hair was a total disaster. SHIT!

I changed hairstyle for like 3-4 times -_-

First time, eee, not nice,

Second time, some say cute -_-, willard laughed at me.

Third time, i do myself, eek, not nice,

then i just clip everything up.

Dont care already -__-

marked out the steps, then Okay, perform! --'

The Fan danced was destroyed D: ,

thanks to me ];

After that, took the bus back to school,

Was kinda high in the bus? LOL.

waited for papa to fetch me! {:

then Dont know whats up with Weien,Felicia & Jiahui --'

siao langs :D:D

went to the IT-Fair, :D

so many ppl, ppl push me from the back, i push them back. :D

Didnt bought the laptop i wanted. well, nevermind.

But bought my mp4 alrights :D

yay! :D

After that, went to meeet grandma & had dinner O;

so fulllzxzxzxz.

wanna vomit already loh. LOL.

& im here alrights! :D

& IM NOT EMO -__-

xiexieni.

Jiahui : evil lah you! LOL.

YanYi : LOL! i change with you?! :D

Sinyi : YOH SS :D

Aiyun : huh?

Yongsiang : hahaa. xiexie. Yeaps :D

Aiyun : aiyunnnn! :D

Joey : HUH?! question mark. LOL

Yunshan : I'll link you up soon alrights? (:

Joey : hahahaa, fine fine (:

Felicia : yay! you blogged :D , Love mummyyy!

Feon : hahaa, kaykay, you not heavy, you FAT. ahaha! nevermind lah :D

Weien : hahaa! enter is loveddd! Yeah! saw you already. LOL

Jiahui : Bu guai ta shi ni de ah gong O:

Calli : huh?! what questionmark?

Aiyun : haha, its over alrdy. (:

Xinnie : will try soon alright.

Jiahui : hahaa. yeah yeah :D

6:28 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

一天过一天明天再见

这是你每次说的一直都没有改变

你的无奈我知道你的心已不在

放开,这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃是什么原因

你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

一天过一天明天再见

这是你每次说的一直都没有改变

你的无奈我知道你的心已不在

放开这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你 (想着你)

不是我不放弃

是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你

不是我不放弃

是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

Passed by zeting's blog & heard this song.

Nice lehhh :D

3:40 AM
Yours truly.

Check it out,

This is what papa bought for mama birthday.

coooolzxz! :D

Romantico~

& dont mind my previous post yeah,

was kinda moooooddswingggg just nowww! :D

3:01 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Giveup

Giveup
Giveup

Giveup

GiveupGiveupGiveupGiveupGiveupGiveup

GiveupGiveupGiveupGiveupGiveup

Giveup

GiveupGiveupGiveupGiveupGiveup

Giveup

GiveupGiveupGiveupGiveupGiveup

its pointless holding on anymore.

10:59 PM
Yours truly.

When everything falls.

Im losing everything, including myself.

Not going Cg Today, personal reason though.

Dance performance's tmrw.

somehow, im not prepared for it.

Im not prepared for ANYTHING.

Im having my Moodswing since last night.

It's still here. damnit.

Go away lah.

Yes, im thinking too much.

Why? because everyone around me is thinking too much,

they asked me to relax & calm down.

Next up, is me calming them down instead.

Im turning crazy.

SHIT!

7:14 PM
Yours truly.

Im Gonna Be, Someone I'll never be.

Im gonna run this race, alone.

Yesterday ~

Schooled like duhhhzxzx.

Chatted alot yesterday,

Lesson as usual.

After school, waited for MRS ONG.

forever late. Z!

Went for dance.

Start at 3, Went back at 7 -__-?

Stupid, Sunday's performance,

Scared le lah T.T

Tuition,

Kinda Fun? & Kinda boring,

Joey's busy entertaining someone else lah D:

Thanks for the rose & present alrights! Loves*

Today~

Aces day dance! so cooollzxzxzxz

I mean coolzxzxzx, NOT cool.

After that, go Hall.

Joked ard, watch the performance & videos.

Maomao ANYHOW SCOLD ME CAN.

I NEVER USE HANDPHONE LOR. IDIOT.

NEXT TIME OPEN UR EYES BIGGER. YOUR WHICH EYE SAW ME USE?!

MY FREAKING PHONE'S IN MY BAG, & MY BAG NOT WITH ME.

ASSHOLE.

after that, went class :D

Pizzaa-ed. someone at the opposite block's a NOOB.

According to Feon, he's a noob (:

Piggyback-ed feon again!

HAND PAIN LOH T.T

Had problem communicating with the noob -_-

okay, enuf bout the noob. LOL.

Somehow, Im alone.

12:17 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

(Daddy's Card, SO UGLY RIGHT!)

MINEE! so much nicer :D:D:DDD

Edited! :D

I look Jiao here -_-

-__-'

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Lesson as usual! :D
First period was PE.

Which was Aces day dance! Do till so pekchek,
Then went to play captain's ball -__-"

Forever im defending. kuku lahs.
& Ain said i kept scratching herrr. wlaoooo

recessed, Chinese, had tingxie D:
Kind of hard, yeah.

Maths, super pissed off. -__-
Then Eng, Then D&T.
Next week needa go back school for d&t. wth.

After school, stayed back, chatted & did the notice board?
Hmms. yeaps!

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEEYANYI AHMEI :D

5:04 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, August 25, 2008

FYI : that person Behind me, aint my boyfriend :D

& the lighting is NATURAL. totally Un-Edited! (:

Schooled today! WEEEEE :D

Early in the morning, Jiu hyper liaos! :D

Art exam, I thought of what to do alrdy :DDDDDDD!

Yeaps, I wanna go Art classs, so must Jiayouuus.

Recess, Hyper tooooooo~

Geog,Maths, Science, History, Belinda The Guai Clipped up her fringe!

which is like, So UGLY. -_-

But bo bian, too irritating.

Chinese rotted like, Yeah. ~

I passed history test.

YayYayYay <:

I thought i'll fail, cause, I totally screwed it.

DeonDaddy Copied me, but still Fail.

LOL :x

After School, Went canteen with Jiahui & YanYi,

Buy my Waterrr! my daily supplyment, LemonTea!

Yeah babe! :x

Then went up to hall,

Did some warm up?

Yeaps, Cher came after that,

Practiced dance :D

Okay, totally screwed alright, I messed up everything!

Sorry Peeps, I made you all stayed later D:

Just because i cant get that Step rght.

SORRY D:

& To That person that kept WOW-ING.

Not funny okay D:

I just Wow only, then you need Wow & wow mehs T.T

So paiseh lah! D:

After that, Bused Home.

& I got a baluku Butt T.T

Practice On Thursday!

Jiayou everyone {:

Replies to tags! ( Like Finally. LOL)

Joey : Hahah! its serious what, Who ask you! :D

Jiahui : yeaps :D , i hope so i Can change toooo.

YongSiang : it is surprising. (:

WeiEn : No, i dont go for Skinny ones! i go For Fat & juicy ones :D

I wont run away one lah! I'll make you happy :D:D:D

I not sad le, dont know why. Hmms, YUP!

Yah Lor, i dont like play the fan D: always wrong side T.T

You dance better okays? I dance like shittay.

You are so pro. (:

Shermaine : hahaha. I will ;D

Jiahui : they Are lor! I not play play-ing -_-

YanYi : tall aint a good thing. D:

Feonn : I'll try alrights? Thanks Aiai :D

Cindy : ily too! :D

Leonard : hahaha. alright! you say one hor. Dont next time say me irritating {:

Felicia : hahaha! yah loh yah loh !

JiaHui : yesss. I know (:

vivienne: yes, of course! :D

Jiahui : shall try that :D *laughs*

Reyna : stickman is SCARY! :D Yups, i know you'll be there :D

4:56 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Lmao, i Laughed at this okay!

More series coming out!

I ~~Hate~~ stickman!
Not hate! dislike! hohohoho!

Sorry if you both think im attituding or something,

seriously, i WAS Jealous.

Yes, i WAS.

& when i was, i became cold.

Im sorry, one is my best friend, one is the person i Love.

Im sorry, i really am.

Both of you didnt said anything,

But, i still wanna say sorry..

Im too sensative.

I'll change. & think more positively.

~~But, you didnt say you still love me.~~

6:10 AM
Yours truly.

Belinda, you're suppose to keep everything to yourself.

So shutup & live ur life.

Chc-ed today,

Congrats Martin & Jia Le from Graduating From SOT :D

In case you dont know, SOT is The School of Theology.

If one day, I cant get into Poly/Art school,

I'll go to SOT! :D:D

It's so cool alrights!

After That, went to Changi Airport for Lunch & Fellowship.

Fellowship became DJ-max time for me & Venus! :D

I managed to cheer up while playing with her -_-

She keep say i nooob, wthhhh.

After that, took bus back home with malcolm or wadever his name is.

he's so so so IRRITATING.

Yeaps, & here i am.

Posting :D

Note to Self :

Dance Tmrw,

Get that Feeling out of my mind.

Feeling pretty happy earlier,

But now, im back to normal.

Argh.

Someone cheer me up?

Well, no one can.

4:33 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

我會發著呆然後忘記妳 ,

接著緊緊閉上眼 ,

想著那一天會有人代替 ,

讓我不再想念妳 ,

我會發著呆然後微微笑 ,

接著緊緊閉上眼 ,

又想了一遍妳溫柔的臉 ,

在我忘記之前 .

~~I dont wanna forget you.~~

7:12 AM
Yours truly.

Another day without you with me

Is like a blade that cuts right through me

But I can wait

I can wait forever

When you call my heart stops beating

When you're gone it wont stop bleeding

But I can wait

I can wait forever

Churched, Paya Lebar, Homed.

Boring.

If you'll ever ask me why.

Because you dont, Thats why i Cry.

Tommorrow's suppose to be our day.

If i said, i want you back, will you come back?

But still, What I hope will happen,

will Never come true.

5:56 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Sheesh, time for a real post mans.

Im currently moodless, but im still updating.

I seriously dont know whats up with my moodswings.

At times, i could be smiling like a freaking retard.

Especially during lessons. No specific idea why.

After school, my mood's always screwed.

& affecting other's.

I needa change my F.ing attitude mans.

But, not easy. Shitez!

Danced after school,

totally restless. Something happened that made me attitude everyone.

FUCK YOU BELINDA TAN.

useless shit.

Replies to tags.

YanYi : i dont wanna be tall.

Joey : saw u already. (:

Jiahui : Yeah. Lol. (:

JingShi : I miss ya too (: , well, still the same problem.

YongSiang : hahaha. okay.

Melissa : More of moodswing bah. Hahaa

3:28 AM
Yours truly.

I must bear this burden

All on my own,alone

I am the only who can do this

I care about him so much

I truly love him intensely

I am too tender, too easily hurt

So I shall retreat to my hiding place

Where I shall hide myself away

I get my heart broken easily

I am too simply broken

I must create a bubble, a shell

Nothing will hurt me

Nothing at all, but myself

I am slowly destroying myself

And if I could speak to him

My love, my life

If only he would accept me

But I must fix this myself

I can’t rely on anyone else

I must rid my life of this poison

I am Dying slowly

I ask from the night and form the stars shining bright,

As i lay in the dark waiting for death sweet release which shall never come

Blooded tears run from my blooded eyes.

A heart that's filled with broken love,

A tearstained wish sent from above,

A love just never meant to be,

A heart that needs to be set free.

A heart that's filled with broken love,

A memory of a fallen dove,

A pair of eyes that cry too much,

The endless tears are not enough.

A heart that's filled with broken love,

She still holds on to his warm glove,

A girl whose heart will never be,

Filled with happy, heavenly glee.

Copyrighted , www.deviantart.com

3:15 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

No one's there, Thats when,

I learn to cry & hide everything.

This time, will be the last time i gonna cry,

Its gonna be the last time, im gonna talk about you.

The last time, im gonna think about you.

I just cant live a lie anymore.

your love's gone.

& yet, nothing's gonna stay the same.

Memories are Just memories.

Dreams are just dreams.

lies are just lies.

I cant help but to let it go, & move on.

I still will love you.

But, im not gonna say anything to anyone anymore.

i'll make everyone think, i've already forgotten you.

Call me foolish,

Call me stupid.

But, there's no other way, but to say goodbye.

3:59 AM
Yours truly.

Replies to tags :D ( like finally. :D)

Stone : try to okays. when i have the time. :D

Yanyi : where got sia -_-, i most of the time never defend dao lor D:

Aiyun : yups yups.

Chiumei : CHIUMEIIIIIII :D

Jiahui : okays.

Joey : im trying to O:

Kelmond : dont you see me always smiling like some retard? HAHA. hello!

YongSiang : i'll try to. im super lazy. HAHAHA

Kailing : Okays :D soon bah.

Melissa : where got never D: i always smiling oneee! must be you see wrong :D

Leonard : Okay , Thankyou. :D

Sorry for the late replies of tag. im super lazy -_-

Tag more leh ppl.

So boring when see so little ppl tag.

discouraging lah D:

2:29 AM
Yours truly.

Who am i to you?

Nothing.

Had lessons as usual,

So lucky lah now adays, Never get caught for uniform {:

Chatted with Feon :D

Well, Thanks for telling me, If you really kept it from me,

I guess i will be angry. Well. i THINK.

Recess, went around with a Heart on ma face! :D

so cute can ;x

Geog had test, im gonna flunk O:

Kays, wadever.

2:02 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Schooled! :D

Today's a Happy day.

dontknowwhy. but still happy day {:

After school was more hilarious ._.

Kays, shall nto say bout it.

VERY PAISEH also ._.

Tuition later, im gonna be lonely again.

cool.

Suppose to be happy, or sad? This week, should've been the worst week.

Whats the date this sunday? 24th..

A date, a number, hard for me to forget but Easy for you.

I know its not easy to forget someone, but, i didnt expected it to be this way.

Letting go was something i could do, easily.

But still, im still holding on to that string.

Falling anytime.. Lately, i've been crying AGAIN.

Why? dont ask me. i dont know. i just breakdown like that.

Infront of you, i tried to be strong, & be happy,

But seeing you smile like before, i forced a smile too..

Some memories are hard to forget, i still rmb it vividly.

The feeling's still there, Whatever i say now, Not's gonna be any use.

Its all Crap.

There's no better guys anymore. The perfect one had already left me.

Nothing last forever. NOTHING. wake up Belinda..

3:13 AM
Yours truly.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

See That bloody fake smile on my face.

Churched today, Went airport for Lunch.

Proceeeded to viewing mall? chatted.

Homed after that.

Oh, if you dont wanna give me money,

THEN DONT?

who's forcing you?.

& one day only?.

Im so gonna Get this STRAIGHT OUT.

5:34 AM
Yours truly.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I Got No Mood For Anything.

so, Goodnight.

Gotta wake up at 5am tmr. {:

7:28 AM
Yours truly.

Friday, August 15, 2008

You're who i think of, now and then.

It has never changed. i still feel the same.

School is a bore today ._.

History test early in the morning

stupid daddy keep copy mine ~

but who cares, he copied all the wrong info. {x

At the end of the day, got Chinese test,

i didnt want to do it de lor, so i jus rushed through it ._.

Then went to canteen to look for Yanyi, calli, gilda & co.

waited for 2.15,

at 2.15 , proceeded to the basketball court ._.

so HOTTTTTT.

then had captainball's match.

First match was quite okay?

cause the other group all never spread out,

Then easier for us {X

Second match, we lost ._.

kays, nvm.

a least we won 2 rounds & lost 2 rounds.

LOL! Just nice mans :D

Library very pro lorrr! esp with stella. ._.

& i didnt help the team at all, all i did was smack the ball everytime.

how boring.

kays. bye

5:10 AM
Yours truly.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Today sucks,

big time -__-

Im not happy/sad today.

Just a little moodless.

I totally lost my mood when i recieved that message.

since its such a chore to reply me,

Then DONT, I dont mind okay.

2:01 AM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Today started off pretty well in fact?

Was superrr happppyyy today.

muahaahha, the old belinda's back ! :x

Is that suppose to be good or bad ._.?

Maths test, im super pathetic,

i didnt finish the graph, which means, i lost 9 marks.

= fail
D:

I wanted to cry while doing that paper okay,

but still, controlled it :Z

Rest of the day ,

Fill in the blanks :D

&&&&&&!

FEONTAN IS A RAPIST, SHE RAPES VIRGINS,

LIKE ME! MY GOSH -___-!

stay away from her mans, she raped me in the lift D:

im gonna catch her & put her in jail ! :D

byebye feon tan! :DDDDD

5:37 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

HELLO :D

Schooled as usual ~

Just a little happier today :D:D:D:D:D:D

some peepo know why, others, hohoho, go find out yourself.

Got stead? LOL. NO kays :D

want think also dont think so far lahhhh ;D

i know how to read you peepo the mind okay! *grins*

After school went eattt!

I admit, i very long never eat tgth with my cliques already :x

Fineee, sorry (:

Next time pei you all more okays ;D

BELINDAAAAA, MUST SMILE MOREEEE!

2:05 AM
Yours truly.

Monday, August 11, 2008

TICOOOOOO CREATIONS ! :D

oh thankyou weien tico!

you cheered me up (:

*ps : censored some parts for personal reasons. (: *

6:29 AM
Yours truly.

Firstly, i wanna thank for those who cared (:

yeapsyeaps.

But still, its so hard to forget someone you love. :/

我心里还是带着你的笑容

replies to tags :

Kelmond : yeaps! :D

Slimshady : Thanks (:

Jiahui : Hello, yeah, i can see ._.

Joey : hahaa, thanks kays, cya in tuition.

Jiahui : yes, i know -_-

Sinyi : hahahaha, relink le lahs :D

YanYi : yeaps. saw already. thanks (:

5:50 AM
Yours truly.

HELLOHELLOHELLO

im using both Livejournal & Blogger alrights! :D

sorry for asking you'll to relink me,

12:45 AM
Yours truly.