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Friday, May 30, 2008
The previous post was suppose to be posted @ 3 pm today.
but, sadly, i dropped my bottle of black nail polish & yeah i need to clean it up, so i let my bro use the comp instead. its 11.37PM now :D & im still posting. when i have to wake up @ 4am tmr :X too happy dao canot sleep le lah :X im gonna meet DEON NEO tmrrrww! @ malaysiaaaa [ i miss him! so long nvr see him le] & its either we go arcade or shop :D i cant waitttttt ! [: [: [: -- yeah, at least you replied. despite its just a few words. but, thankyou for replying. even though its 12 hrs later ! :X im not gonna get sad over you anymore. when u left, u never wanted me to be sad. so i shall SMILEEEE :D
8:36 AM
Yours truly. im bored! so i shall write how i know my shc frienddds! :D and communicate with them ;D -- ![]() Joyceeee! sister :D when i first went church, joyce didnt come D: a few weeks after that, she cameeee! but didnt talk to her. i only know she from damai. O: then sat beside her during sermon :D i got a feeling she dont like meee! ]: then i started dont like her too. LOL. X: Then slowly, we started to talk in msn :D & i found out she's niceeee! jus she dont like talk or smth :X & yeah, got 1 time, i took her pic she not happy :X come scold me on msn. scaryyyy! LOL. yeah! & once, she said i ahlian then i say she ahlian, we were like quarreling all the way :X then she say she see me sad, she cry also. but very long ago thing already. HAHA. muahaha, see the chat log, so many happy memories :D & you said jay chou sucks, then i give sad face, you ask me why i sad :X & yeah, u said i was despo too! then we two are girls, so nvm about saying :X i really didnt regret knowing you :D i love sisterrrr! :D {JB sisters} ♥ -- ![]() Lionel { big stomach }. okay, it started off when i knew he was from damai too. but never talk so much, till got 1 time martin come damai, then everyone gather tgth, then i started to really talk to him?. yeah, & his stomach was biggg, so call him big stomach. hahahaa ;D remember that time you went detention? then you come out, i use ur phone call darius :X then i call & call & call. hahahaa [: got 1 time also, jason & marcus, i told marcus to come find you because u stuck in the drain :X then u were like ' save me, im in the drain! ' fun times :D hope our friendship last eh! ;D ♥ -- ![]() Venus :D yeah, sat beside her during sermon once, she's cuteeee! :D i didnt know she's lionel sister, till very long -______-! seldom talk, but, always we talk she will laugh & laugh & laugh :X yeah, i love THE venus! ♥ -- ![]() Gerafin 'v' started talking to her since i stick with jing yu, & we never really talk much. till sometime, we started tagging each other's blog. everytime i tag her blog, sure got ' cheer up' de :X cause nothing to say le mah she say i steal her girlf. D: ♥ -- JINGSHIIII! :D:D:DDDDD! once, i saw her friendster, then i was like asking, who is jingshi? then ppl tell me she same age as me, then i was like ' O: ' she looked so matured in her picture! i never really talked to her, till got 1 time, we went down to buy drinks, & yeah, started talking. but we more comfortable on talking in msn :D:D she loves to draw :X remember our trip to ECP to cycle! :D ♥ -- ChenKai -____-! when he first time come to church i find him super familiar, look like chenhan, then i ask ask ask alot ppl, they tell me he's chen han's brother. LOL. then when we preparing the welcome back tingjie banner, he was like smiling, & i kept saying to him ' STOP SMILING ' & yeah, he pissed me off -_____-! & this guy is a biantai, he poke girls on the stomach. ! beware :X & bhb too. ♥ -- Nicholas [: Yunshan brought him to church! & among all the guys, he's the only one that stayed. which is like, goodddd! yeah, joker like ALWAYS. & said that i get drunk on coke! what a joke -_______-?! brothers & sisters in Christ ! ♥ -- ![]() Jasper. :D He looks scary, but is friendly! in a manner though, :D you last time kept telling me *she* very cute uh? :D thanks for sending us home last time @ ecp ♥ -- ![]() Cindy ! :D smart girl! so many A's envious * okay, sorry last time scold you say u all never wait for me :X:X i realised is i stupid, wait @ wrong side :X hahaha! & u dont need say sorry de luh [: ♥ -- ![]() Xinyi :D another smart girl i know in church once, u ask if i know you. & i was like, huh, who are you? then u say we same team during orientation camp :X AHA. i seriously FORGOT :X thanks for all the advises. they really work! LOVES ♥ -- ![]() PEARLYN [: chao ah lian :X . dress like ahlian :D :D dont leave shc okay D: promise me. ♥ -- im sorry if i left anyone out. but, im here to say i will treasure everyone of you all :D ♥ Labels: shc :D
5:57 AM
Yours truly.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
(ps. i know my leg ugly luh! , but there's some mark there, see :D)this isnt photoshop-ed out kay. its R-E-A-L. everytime i wear shorts, i will see this mark, one i have carved out during assembly. it used to be more obvious, but now, its starting to fade away. i think you forgotten me already. it has been so long. everytime we are near, i feel that you're so far away, from me. tell me, this is a game, one that will end NOW. i dont want to play anymore. please end it. ]: I BEG YOU.
4:05 AM
Yours truly.
2:27 AM
Yours truly. Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you’re bleeding? dance today. tiring. got scolded. but it was partly my fault. i finally can do the back roll, now must try the cher that type :D after that, went to kfc, jiahui came along with me :D buy home eatttttt. my bro eat abit too :D (im nice right? :D) i made a terrible mistake. i dont know what, but there's this feeling, that i made a mistake. ------ On the edge of breaking down And no one’s there to save you No you don’t know what it’s like No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I’m happy But I’m not gonna be okay
1:29 AM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
you never said, i was just acting as if i knew,
all these while. many things happened, i dont feel like saying them. well, not to anyone. i need, quiet time, with the Lord, i really need it.
6:40 AM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
no. i dont want to be like this.
Die belinda. die. Today - woke up & went to salonnnnnn. with Jiahui & Weien :D it was okay. i guess! [: Joey shuang lo. wan extend jiu extend, parents own the shop mah :D ---- shitmyself. ihatemyself _!_ why, do i have 3 different personalities. & all 3 like different person?! z. chenhan you said, its normal. i dont find it so. iHATEBELINDATAN.
7:06 AM
Yours truly.
Monday, May 26, 2008
idontknowhowtoconsoleyou.
even though u didnt say you were sad. i could see you were. cheer up alrights. even though i aint to say anything. but, i've been thru this before, its tough, but somethings, are meant to be gone. TOMMOROWWW! :D meeting jiahui & weien :D:D maybe after that gerafin (:Nicole : [: maybe only. see the extension do till what time {: time to reply tags! :D Nicole : :D
6:46 AM
Yours truly. The pain is all i want to feel.
saturday. started off with going churchhhhhh! wear like ~!@#$%^&*. got this small guy in mrt, wanted to grab something on my shirt which is like -__________- & i chua tio. scary lo! bought 2 white choco on the way. wanted to gave 1 to lionel to cheer him up. then he nvr come. z! hahhaa. then gave to cindy instead. had games, bible study. then poooof home with gerafin. chatted on the way. ( bout ahems! * ) it took me more than 1 hr to reach home. ): sunday. waited for bryan @ bedok inter. he's late! by 10 mins D: taorenyan. make me stand there like idiot. then went to take mrttttt. had service @ CHC. after service, went to Airport eat mac. Then proceeded to Haigs court. guys swam, girls slack around. eventually, got wet like -_________-! lionel lended me his shirt & mrs yee lended her pants ;D lionel's shirt is class tee -____- and the back wrote ' LIONEL , 28 ' mrs yee pants were big O: but, still can wear, & folded it. then ard 7 + went to parkway for dinnerrrrrrr. ate then ard 9, they went off. i went to find mom. waited till 1030, then she & i went back. sat @ the back of the lorry. which is shuang, cause very dark. & windy ;D Monday. got woken up by some ppl who says she's bored @ home. jio-ed her out to bedok. with mum & bro too. went eat mac, library. then went NTUC. ;D then homeeee. which is here :D im nonsense T_T bye ppl. 3,only 1 can be.
12:36 AM
Yours truly.
Friday, May 23, 2008
i hate holidays,
i hate holidays, i hate hate hate holidays! every year, i dread this day the most ]: but this year, i seriously hate holidays. . . . HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEONNNNNNNNN dearrrr, remember our child, LION. we love him alot righttt? :D but so sad he's in the bin now ); & yeah, i hoped u had run during the water war. sorry if im having to give u a belated gift. buttt! stay happy thru all circumstances alrighttts. you're strong! :D
7:16 AM
Yours truly. Last day of school for one month
= torture. { pure torture } school started off with punishment -________- me, reyna, jiahui, nicole, 3e3 guy, zuyao, ashley. sat in the middle of parade square during morning assembly. sat at front of hall during assembly. -_____________________________________- stupid, then went off to celebrate feon's birthday. kena caught on video or smth. assholes. then went ate, blah blah. One month, of no seeing you. its nothing to you. but to me, its everything. do i really love you?.
2:45 AM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
stop acting as if im I-N-V-I-S-I-B-L-E
why cant we be like old times? because of my one sentence, everything changed. EVERYTHING. maybe u aint that hurt, but, have u thought of how i felt? im not angry/disappointed/sad over you. everytime i see you, i cant get my eyes off you. but, u DIDNT even glance back. all i want is you to glance back. ): forgive me will you? maybe after the holidays, you will forget me. & i will forget you too. i guess.
2:30 AM
Yours truly.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
1. Name:
; TWTBelinda 2. Age: ; ten plus four minus eight times two plus two :D 3. Single or taken: ; not single nor taken. 4. Whats the craziest thing you did: ; trying to kill myself with a blunt knife. 5. Sexual orientation: ; lining up to sign up for sexual course? 6. Fantasized: ; huh. 7. Have been screwed: ; huh. 8. Describe yourself: ; That old hag on the road trying to make sure the world wears their underpants. 9. What is the most regretful thing you have done: ; break friendship with ...... ): 10. If time can be turned back, what would you change: ; never admitted that i liked ...... ): { this quiz make me cry lah! stupiddddd! } 11. What is your wish: ; go back to that friday. 12. Pass this on to 3-4 people: ; jiahui ; joyce ; chiumei ; zech { if you have the time -___- }
5:40 AM
Yours truly. Split personalities ;
these few days, im sorry for my attitude. really sorry. emo/angry/dao friday; morning was fine i guess. during dance, was really stress, i couldnt catch up, i totally forgotten my steps. leonard & jonathan scared me -_____- & i shouted. z. after that, went petal mac with dance cliques. tuitioned after that. concentrate like ~!@#$%^&*( :D saturday; woke up @ 11. sorry dad uh, for shouting at you, when u were jus playing ard. bath & watched tv for awile, then went to singpost meet nicholas, lionel, joyce. etc etc. then went to haig court? (how to spell ah :X) its super nice, got big poool :D had games, & i was ask to stand on nicholas leg :X which is = nicholas die. then he pain lorh, hahaha :X & i need to do sad face :X i did like i was super retarded. z then go eattttt. but me & joyceee jus eat a little. i ate 3 satays! or 2 ? thn lend money from ahgong buy pocky. the pocky stuck in the machine, canot take out. wth -_____- lionel to the rescue! but my pocky got squashed. D: after that, went to function room, me & joyce got scared like shitttt ! all thanks to the boys -_________- then martin talk talk talk talk. after that, everyone go separate ways. me & joyce went to the pool side, i lied down & stare @ the sky, super nice. seeing the cloud float by. then played ard with water, crapped & went off @ 9 ++ then nicholas & bryan walked with meeeeee lionel brought joyce the wrong way & came with us :D but, i go another way, i didnt know how to go, so nicholas brought me! :D then 197 came, he asked me to run. then i run run run! , the uncle dao me. then he drive off. z. nicholas laugh @ me & accompanied me wait for the next bus. 197 came AGAIN. then i boarded the bus, jasper & johan? ( how spell uh? ) were inside. went down @ next stop. walked to parkway then waited for 1030 dad came, sat at lorry behind. fell asleep back there :X 11 reach home. today; woke up @ 745 bathe & went out @ 820. joyce msged me said that she going reach already. & im still in 222. enjoying it turning one big round. im the only person in the bus till 3 stops later -_____- double deck somemore. wth. scary lo. then mrt-ed to tanah merah & then expo. pearlyn & joyceee reach already. thn waited for others. then went off to foyer there? hmm, after that, dont talk about it. joyceee ask me dont smile @ her T-T then after church, went to airport for lunch, sat with zech, stanley & joyceeeee! zech & stanley are hilarious can! abt the lonely sushi? zech & the Caribbean sea? :X haha. then crapped around. off to see aeroplane there :X but me & joyceee sat @ one corner, while others were playing, joyce listen song, i play chenkai's psp :X the game is like super crap, the screen will turn, but i keep turning the psp -_______- im a noob lah ! :X then i kept asking ard if im cute. super bhb i know! hahahaha :D after that, i nvr really talk to joyceee D: then i jus quiet lo. :X lionel kept singing ( horrible ) :D:D:D:D:D & he only on those english ones. weird guy -________________- then home sweet home :D & i realised, dad went pulau ubin today -_______- z. icantstopcrying, itsoveralready, whycantigetoverit?
3:17 AM
Yours truly.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
& Gastric's problems are back.
got back english, science, chinese, geog & maths today. seriously disappointing can? english- pass. but idk overall. science - pass [: chinese - paper failed, but overall pass. [: geog - dont talk about it. 2nd lowest in class [ F9 ] ): maths - disappointing, failed, but better than last time :): okay, last night, i received back my bill -____- from 23april - 03 may. $64. zzz, 10 days only? messaging - 1003. $ 50 call - 80 mins outgoing. $8 ++ line - $20 3G & using of internet - $38 then plus Gst , minus msg, minus call. = 64 $ luh. zzzzzzz. & if this mth, my msg go over 1000, which has already gone over. will be confiscated, like yes, for real. for how many @#$%^&*I months. or maybe, like last yr, till my birthday then get back D: so ppl , dont msg me, my father doesnt allows msg to be in too ): haisssssssssss,i fucking cry in class AGAIN. like embarrassing. cause of my personal emotional issues D: after that. i guess okay already. & asshole, i very bad mood le, u still come irritate me. fucker. everytime we cross path, i never wanted to look back. because, you will never turn & look at me.
12:56 AM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
its not worth. its not.
i finally got it all sorted out {: im back to the happy-go-lucky me :D good news for some ppl, bad news for some too. hahhaa :D had tuition yesterday, kinda boring, for me. cause, i didnt really bothered what was happening. its like im living in my own world then. ;D sorry joey & melody if i ignored u two. today is another boring day, teachers are marking our papers now. -_____________-, no wonder i keep sneezing, sure saying my bad thing. {: tmr, im dying. FOR SURE. results are coming out ): well, good luck to me :D no more about you, no more.
8:17 PM
Yours truly. can everything go back in time?
seriously.. i want to go back in time, i wan everything to stop. i want to go back to 18th april. can it? the first message from you, the very first day i know you. if now, we ever message each other, i really hope, our first message this time will be like 18th april. when u asked why i kept staring at you. grant my wish. will you?
3:58 AM
Yours truly. i just don't have the courage to do so.
he's not heartless. he's not.. (i think?) there's tuition later, sure alot ppl one luh D: & im sick, i need a break from everything. EVER SINGLE THING. ):
1:49 AM
Yours truly.
Monday, May 12, 2008
yay! no schoooooool!
but, mummy & me not happy D: cause * heh heh * :D i woke up at 11 today :D thanks to ahgongggggg. old man ): then, got frustrated early in the morning. daddy ask me dont know do wad logo for t-shirts. z! im like busy okayyyyy. so, its time to reply tags. or no one is gonna tag D:
i cant forget, i cant.. i C-A-N-T. ): i need a break.
10:00 PM
Yours truly.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
i really wish to smile, but only you could make me.
maths paper was super hard. i was super distracted. super sick too. reyna said she kept hearing me cough. it has been three days since we last sms-ed. i really miss you, i feel like msging you, but we aint friends anymore. even if i really did, u wont reply. i tried my best to control myself yesterday, but i guess, i couldnt. im not strong, but u once said i was. & its hard for me to close my eyes, everytime i do, your image will appear. i guess i cant let go, & i knew that all along. if i were given another chance, i guess i would do back the same thing.. today is the last day of exam, i still remembered what you said.. back then, i kept looking forward for this day, but now, im only dreading it. today morning, my eye was a little swollen when i reached school. but when i jus woke up, it was super swollen till i can barely open my eye. i didnt cry last night, maybe during my dreams i cried? or, i cried without knowing.. imissyou, i really do.. 只要能在和你说一句话,我就心满意足了
9:39 PM
Yours truly.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
tomorrow's mothers day! :D im jus doing it earlier, becauseee! tmr no time! :D:DNo. 1 :D ![]() FeliciaLim mummy :D happy mother's day :D iloveyou many many ♥ i super love to seee u dance, super elegant okay! even though we haven talked for long. i still miss you okay! im not sure if you miss-ed me, i dont mind if you didnt! hahha :D ilyyy! ♥♥♥ No. 2 ![]() ReynaTan mother ♥ you're the best listening ear if i needed one. dont worry bout daddy, you two will be fine. that day, when i talked to you on phone. i dont know if you heard it, but i cried. i really did. that shows how worried i was about him right? oh ya! i will be there to help u & daddy okay! so dont give up. happy mothers day! iloveyou! ♥♥♥♥ No. 3 AnnChooHongJessie ; my Real mother! :D happy mothers day! i know you will have no chance of reading this. you're the reason why im sitting here, typing this. even though, i give attitude everytime, i shout at you & dad. i really didnt meant to, im sorry. im really sorry for all the things i've done to hurt you. if one day, we could switch body, then i will know. how hard it is, to bring up two kids. i will cherish you, now & forever. i dont want to lose you ever again. iloveyou! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ you : i guess, everythings over. even our friendship.. im sorry i broke it, im really sorry. i didnt know why im like this. you will never be there for me, ever again. 我们连朋友都不是了,但,我还是忘不了你 如果有一天,你能看见我对你的爱有多深.. 有些话,我还没和你说.. 我的心就在你手上..
7:49 AM
Yours truly.
Friday, May 9, 2008
what more do i ask, then you?
second post! :D im not happy & im not sad. im just tired, sad & happy. okay, no one can get that, well :D cold cold cold. u're being cold nowwww and mean too! or am i jus too sensative? i hope i aint. sometimes, not fated jiu shi not fated, force also wont have xing fu. too much xi wang also not good. later break down jiu ho seh liao. hhees, adding a little english & chinese & hokkien :D im seriously worried jus now luh, & u ask me not to care? even as a good friend, i should have the rights to care wad. -_________________________- mummy's right, u're hard to understand. 就这样,我需要偷偷的爱着你.
7:12 AM
Yours truly.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
is it my fault?
i hope not, hais. i thought it would be great, u didnt go back on ur words this time, but, it jus wasnt what i thought it would be... lit was fine, so was chinese. people leave me aloneeeee, i want to think, & think.. so FO. please! sorry for being rude. to someone : i really miss talking to you, as a friend. everytime i talk to you, u will give me that oh-so-blur face, which always make me laugh. im trying very hard to talk to you, in school, but whenever i see you, i will get this awkward feeling, guilty. i guess. almost everyday, im seeing you, monday to friday, school. saturday & sunday, church. how am i going to face you? i dont know. if you read this, im here to say, im really sorry.. & to someoneelse : i really dont know where im wrong AGAIN. i seriously hate myself, but i dont blame them, they showed up, it wasnt all planned, maybe, it's all God planned, we're not fated. but rmb, we're friends, so why u care how ppl think? hais, suan le..
10:26 PM
Yours truly. you're happy now, while im here alone.
science was seriously hard luh. i lost 6 marks already! hahaha :D after science, went to aiyun house, crapped around. i went off first, dad asked me to come home D: on the way back, got these 4 irritating girls lah. they keep laughing, pushing. & they infront of me, one of them the bag make till my face alot of times, 1 more make till my hair, which made my hair super messy. ftusd mans. im super super bored & sad now lah. idk why luh! ): We will live in the light of the sun again Dancing in the river of life and Knowing that'll never end Forever by your side We'll never have to say goodbye
12:19 AM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
He is someone who is charming enough not to knock me off my senses and sweep me off my two-inched feet maths = die.
eng = idk what to say. okay, i find this weird, while doing eng & maths, i was scratching my collar there, then i look at his direction. he's doing that too ! -_- when i making my fringe, he also doing it O: then then! when i going to lie down on the table, he also lying down le! LOL {: , well, its nothing. tmr is science, stupid ): My worries disappear when you're around No thoughts of pain or doubt I feel your love when you hold me close And kiss me if I pout I don't care what they are talking about All I care for is you I'll jump off a building to show you my love If that's what I have to do I love you for everything that you are Not what you promise to be I know you can't see why or how You're the most important thing to me
2:16 AM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
WAHAHHA.
FLUNK EVERYTHING LAH :D history & geog = DIE :D! history was better then geog lo! geog is totally crap cans. aiyun kept coming my hse! we walked rounds & rounds today! :D:D then got 1 grp of guyyyy, ITE de. go say ' EH, u wan her no. right?! ask her lahhh! ' then me & aiyun act like never hear. LOL! fun bodoh :D okay! im super bored nowwww! there's tuition later! only me & joey are going D: but its gonna be fun! :DDDDDDDD
1:37 AM
Yours truly.
Monday, May 5, 2008
SORRY LAH.
SORRY I POST ABOUT U LAH.
12:32 AM
Yours truly.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
i got this mood to post luh D:
im some sort of angry somehow ): but idk why. hahaha.
1:46 AM
Yours truly. |
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